I would probably guess that my future was already written for me the day I was given my name. And though I do believe that we all have the ability to "choose" I think that even those decisions were already made for us.
Some things should probably remain unspoken as some things are really- too hard to think of. However, the chances of us living happier lives if everything is out in the open is bigger than living whilst knowing there are things haunting us.
I've never killed a human being.
I've never harmed a human being- deliberately.
Yet, all the decisions I've made in my life have led me to this exact moment where I'm writing stories from my recent past. A past that for the past year has been haunting me regardless of all the efforts I make of making it feel- normal.
"We never touch people so lightly that we don't leave a trace" It's true you know...
I would probably have never ended up being the way I am if it wasn't for what the people in my past have contributed to my ever seemingly flowing future.
I'm blabbing and not exactly sure where it's leading me so I might as well start with what I remember as "last year's nightmare is the sweetest dream of today"
Last year, right before graduating from high school, or- better yet mid March was the by far the most hectic time I've had ever.
At the time, three men came into my life in about the same time, and well- for a 17 year old it wasn't as easy as I would imagine.
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